Well, we're nearing the day of meeting our precious little one. Gosh, it's hard to believe! I had a shower yesterday and it was such a blessing and such a grateful time for me. However, I came home with an unusual emptiness that I could not comprehend until this morning...though I'm sure it's still processing in my head even as I write.
At this amazing time in my life, I am celebrating this child within me. It stings though to think of 2 other precious children that were ours. We didn't celebrate them, we mourned them. We never had the opportunity to know them...to learn what they loved, to laugh at their sweet smiles. I had heard about unresolved grief and guilt that occurs in pregnancy after previous losses. I never could understand feeling guilty until now. Why weren't these 2 children celebrated like the one that is moving and kicking within me now? It's not fair. It's not. They, too, were God's creation, fearfully and wonderfully made.
Oh, Lord, give me comfort that You are celebrating these precious little ones that went so quickly to be with you. They deserve to be loved and adored and delighted in. And I know that You delight in every one of your creations.
So, to Munchkin and Sweet Pea, I love you, I celebrate you and know someday we will meet. In the meantime, watch out for your little sibling and tell them to be good to Momma and Papa!
Monday, July 21, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
A little laugh
This always cracks me up...this is dedicated to Ashley on her birthday, after her rough morning!
Friday, July 11, 2008
been awhile
Yeah, it's been awhile since I've written. I don't know exactly why...could be laziness, could be not wanting to sit in front of the computer longer than I need to, or it could be the fear I had in sharing my pregnancy wondering if I say it out loud, we'll lose it. Well, whatever it was, it's over, and I'm back.
Life is good, God is good.
My soul has been in need of some refreshing. Do you ever feel that way? To just walk through the day-to-day living without the bigger purpose pulsating through your veins. Well, I've been there.
We visited my old beloved church this past weekend on our way back from Tennessee. And I needed to be there, and the Lord spoke to me. Rev. Shane's sermon was about returning to God with passion and fervor. And walking this mountain together. So I told Jason that it was time for me to return, and return whole-heartedly and whole-souledly (I know, I made that word up) to my Lord.
So this week, I pulled out my old Beth Moore bible study I hadn't yet finished. It's wonderful! Beth has an amazing way of connecting scripture and making it fully alive...well, I guess the Lord does that, but Beth is one amazing vessel. I can't say I always want to set aside 30 minutes (yeah, that's sad, isn't it?) to my quiet time. But after it, my heart and soul are changed, and I wonder how could I have missed that?!
So, to the Lord, I say, "Thank you for loving despite my selfishness."
God is Good All the Time.
We only have a couple months left before we meet our baby boy/girl.
I am married to the most amazing husband a girl could ask for.
And I am truly blessed.
Oh, and we have the cutest and craziest dog ever!
Life is good, God is good.
My soul has been in need of some refreshing. Do you ever feel that way? To just walk through the day-to-day living without the bigger purpose pulsating through your veins. Well, I've been there.
We visited my old beloved church this past weekend on our way back from Tennessee. And I needed to be there, and the Lord spoke to me. Rev. Shane's sermon was about returning to God with passion and fervor. And walking this mountain together. So I told Jason that it was time for me to return, and return whole-heartedly and whole-souledly (I know, I made that word up) to my Lord.
So this week, I pulled out my old Beth Moore bible study I hadn't yet finished. It's wonderful! Beth has an amazing way of connecting scripture and making it fully alive...well, I guess the Lord does that, but Beth is one amazing vessel. I can't say I always want to set aside 30 minutes (yeah, that's sad, isn't it?) to my quiet time. But after it, my heart and soul are changed, and I wonder how could I have missed that?!
So, to the Lord, I say, "Thank you for loving despite my selfishness."
God is Good All the Time.
We only have a couple months left before we meet our baby boy/girl.
I am married to the most amazing husband a girl could ask for.
And I am truly blessed.
Oh, and we have the cutest and craziest dog ever!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
A Must See
We went to see Expelled: No Intelligence Allowed this weekend. Bravo! to Ben Stein and everyone associated with this great documentary. Being pregnant, I wonder how anyone can question there has to be a bigger creator in this amazing, diverse world.
What's scary is the tie between Darwinism and Nazi Germany. Every life has meaning...every life.
Go see, and evaluate how we have lost freedom in a most critical area--Science.
What's scary is the tie between Darwinism and Nazi Germany. Every life has meaning...every life.
Go see, and evaluate how we have lost freedom in a most critical area--Science.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Good Friday
Lord, help me not forget what you did so that I would be saved. You had the power to destroy the cross, yet you chose to die and save me and all creation. Praise Your Holy Name!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
the world needs the church
This is a little blip from my old and beloved church's unity service (Rev. Shane Bishop). I watched this video and it just warmed my heart and tickled me too.
Friday, February 15, 2008
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